a student's worst nightmare

every twelth standard student done with the board exams must be experiencing it.. the jitters,blank periods of time , sudden prayers and vowing to do the most impossible and ridiculous things - anything for those magic numbers and happiness on the D-DAY.

april to may till the date of the results is  a nightmare. while some of them feel happy about the results being declared on a date which is not in the near future others just pretend to have fun and a voice at the back of the head just keeps whispering the dreaded R word from time to time-making us pause during our time of fun, interupting out carefree days and absolutely jobless hours , dispelling the absolute pure pleasure of knowing that there is no need to wake up early and study for another exam or dread what kind of surprises(read terrors) await us in the question papers.

students belonging to different boards have an altogether different story.while some boards give the results first students belonging to another board can only torture himself or herself with thoughts about how they have a definite edge over them in the admission process with their results in hand even though  not the case.

temples see a sudden increase in student population. usually that is the case before an exam but surprisingly after it  too. pledges and declarations of "being regular in coming and visiting you" , "surrendering half my pocket money if what i pray happens" ,"definite kumbabhishekam if centum" are heard aplenty.hours spent over worrying how the paper is going to be corrected or the chances of mistakes being overlooked or the person correcting the paper is compassionate enough to give that ONE mark to pass or get  seventy , eighty , ninety or a centum....

i myself do most of the things listed. but many a time the thought of what all the worrying and being depressed is going to do to something that has already been done with crosses my mind. at a time when i can have fun enjoy and think about my future prospects , is it really worth thinking about all the wasted hours and regretting not having studied THAT LESSON ,paying more attention in class and all the classes cut due to culturals..regret is a good thing but probably not something a person should torture oneself with.its really sad to read about all the suicides of the students heart broken because of their results having an amazing family and wonderful friends im just going to be the same old poorvaja to them no matter what my results are going to be. board exam results are not proof of one's intelligence and capability or so i feel.so just face whatever comes and its all for the good at the end.all the best everyone!!

poorvaja =]

(NOTE:this article might sound like a sermon but i wrote it mainly in a bid to reassure myself and it did work upto a certain extent .... so if by chance you fell asleep WAKE UP !)